I didn’t always drink coffee. Not in high school, not in college, and I didn’t have to give it up during my 4 pregnancies in my 20s. But after having 4 kiddos in 6.5 years, a pick-me-up was needed.
I never did like the taste of coffee, so I started here–this very Starbucks (pictured above) in Dublin, Ohio (before there was one on literally every corner). I remember ordering the White Chocolate Mocha because someone insisted I would like it. Of course I did! Who wouldn’t love 1000 calories of hot white chocolate sugar with a hint of coffee topped with whipped cream in a cup??? It was like hot liquid ice cream! But since we didn’t live near a Starbucks and we really didn’t have room in the budget for an expensive habit, I needed an alternative. So I started drinking coffee at home so I could keep up with my four young children. Mainly creamer and sugar with a little coffee….. But then my husband (and my diet) convinced me to eliminate the sugar. So I did. Then over time, I lessened the amount of creamer. Then Husband started drinking it black. And eventually, so did I. And now here we are–seasoned coffee drinkers sans sugar and creamer.
And now you see memes like “First I Drink the Coffee, Then I (fill in the blank).” Yes, that is me. Must. Have. Coffee. First. No matter what the day has in store. Now, with many coffee drinkers in the house, if you get up late, you’ll have to make another pot! I guess you could call it an addiction. But I guess if I’m to have an addiction, I could think of worse things to be addicted to….
But it is also a nice go-to when you need a pick-me-up, or a hot cup in your hands on a cold day, or just a “wow, coffee sounds really good right now”! I understand the attraction. So when the author of Chapter 3 “Craving Connection” started in with “All I wanted was a Starbucks…” and she couldn’t find one, I could feel her pain. Although like I said, I don’t necessarily need a Starbucks, but this woman was just after a cup of coffee after a rough morning. She just wanted a little familiarity considering she was temporarily living in a hotel with her family while their house was being built. She was in an unfamiliar routine in an unfamiliar town with a stressed-out family, so wanted to find a little solace in a little cup of sugary goodness. And when she drove around on unfamiliar roads and couldn’t find the little green mermaid enclosed in a circle, she had a little breakdown.
But it was that little breakdown that taught her a big lesson. In that weak moment, she leaned on Jesus. “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.” Psalm 34:18 NLT. Not that her soul was crushed from the heaviness of this world, but her world felt very heavy in the moment. Weeks and months of uncertainty had finally come crashing down on her.
Like she said, what if she had found a Starbucks that day? Would she have had the “come to Jesus moment”? Maybe not. Maybe she would have found temporary happiness in her $5 cup of coffee, and gone back to her stressful morning. Instead, she let the weight come crashing down, let Jesus pick up the weight, and continued on with life a little less heavy in her spirit (and a little heavier in the wallet). “He is always there to rescue those whose spirits are crushed. Stop splashing and reach for the life raft.”~Eryn Hall
Prayer from the end of the chapter:
“Father, thank You for the promises of Your Word. Thank You for being close to the brokenhearted. Lord, thank You for rescuing us when we are crushed. Thank You, Father, for being our source for comfort, hope, and peace. Heavenly Father, draw us nearer to You when we feel lost and alone. Strengthen and cover, God; bring a reminder and understanding that You alone are the ultimate need in our lives. Lord, thank You for Your faithful promises and Your unfailing Word!”